OCTOBER 13, 2009...4 YEARS AGO TODAY...  / MOM

Bubby

     I would have never thought that 4 years ago today at this moment that I would only have hours left with you. It has been very difficult without you. I love you so much and I miss you more than anyone could ever know. I have learned first hand that a broken heart does not mend. I think of you all the time and I picture your cute face telling me that you love me and us hugging each other. I remember hugging you so tight that you said that you couldn't breathe. You would laugh because you loved it when I hugged you like that. I miss everything about you. I will never get over you not being here. I replay your voice your laughter and the visions of you and your smile in my mind and heart over and over. Bubby I love you so so much...I tell you all the time and I know you hear me. I will never understand why...I love you the most as my youngest son and everything about you will live on in my heart for as long as I live. You will never be forgotten and you will always be loved. You are a very special son and a very special boy. You will always be my sunshine. I miss you very much and my love for you will never end. I love you. Love always and forever  Mom  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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i still cant believe youre gone.  / Serenity Allen

i cant believe its been almost 4 years since you left us. i miss you so much and things will never feel right without you. i miss your smile and your laugh. i just want you to know that i could never forget you. ill always hold on to the memories we shared and the love and laughter that you brought to me and my family.

i know that i will see you again and on rainy days it makes me feel alot better. you visit me alot in my dreams and i hate waking up and knowing that you wont be there. i just wish you were here.

i read your notes yesterday and i miss them. i miss seeing you in between every class with a note. i miss how your bus stop was first and when i got off you were already there waiting for me. i miss spending time with you until i went to bed and being able to wake up the next morning and know you were saving my seat when i got on the bus.

i know that youre in a better place now and that you watch over me but i just want to hug you again and tell you how much i love you. it hurts not being able to hug you or hear your laugh.

i wonder everyday how my day wouldve been different if you were here. we'd both be 17 and about to graduate together. i wish we could share that. i wish you wouldve been able to experience prom and getting your first car. i bought mine about a year ago and i have one of the stickers your mom gave me on my back window.

summer time seems like its the hardest to get through because we spent so much time together that last summer and shared alot of memories. i remember when we talked lance into running through the soccer field in his boxers in the middle of the night and then we stole his clothes and hid. that was so much fun and i didnt think youd ever be able to stop laughing at him.

i remember another time when i was on the phone with you and it was really late at night and all of a sudden you started laughing and i asked you why and you told me lance was there. hed snuck out of my house and went to your house.

i didnt think that after what happened with my dad that i would be able to feel pain worse than what id felt then but losing you was much worse. you helped me get through every on of my court trials and you were there to talk to anytime i needed someone. after i lost you i didnt have anyone to help me. i didnt think id ever survive both things. but knowing that ill see you again helped me. and knowing that you were right there with me still helped me through it all.

i just want you to know that i miss and love you so much and i will always cherish the memories that we shared. i can still hear your laugh and it always brings a smile to my face.

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"HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY LITTLE BUBBY"  / MOM

BUBBY,

          TODAY YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN CELEBRATING YOUR 17TH BIRTHDAY. WE WOULD HAVE BEEN CELEBRATING, BUT FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON, YOU WERE SWEPT AWAY. YOU WERE TAKEN AWAY FROM ALL OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU...YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR FRIENDS. NOT A MOMENT GOES BY THAT YOU'RE NOT IN OUR HEARTS, THOUGHTS, OR PRAYERS. IT SEEMS JUST LIKE YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS SO VERY HAPPY THAT YOU HAD FINALLY ARRIVED TO THIS WORLD AND INTO MY LIFE  AND IT SEEMS JUST LIKE YESTERDAY WHEN MY HEART WAS SHATTERED IN TO A MILLION PIECES. I PRAY THAT YOU ARE HAVING A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN LITTLE BUBBY. I PRAY THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE SAFE AND THAT YOU ARE HAPPY. WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN AND IT WILL BE FOREVER. I'M BLOWING YOU A KISS FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY AND TO LET YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. I ALWAYS KNEW YOU WOULD BE A HEARTBREAKER, BUT I NEVER WANTED IT TO BE LIKE THIS. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY SUNSHINE AND I LOVE YOU THE MOST AS MY YOUNGEST SON. I CAN SEE YOU SMILING RIGHT NOW. I LOVE YOU LITTLE BUBBY AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUBBY.

 

LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER,

MOM

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX 

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MEMORIES OF YOU  / MOM...I Love You And I Miss You So Much!!!

TO YOU BUBBY, LOVE MOM

YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE, WHAT A JOYOUS TIME IT WAS.

I COULDN'T WAIT TO HOLD YOU, KISS YOU, AND HUG YOU BECAUSE I HAD WAITED ALONG TIME FOR YOU TO COME INTO MY LIFE.

YOU WERE MY SHINING STAR AND THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS REMAIN.

ALL THE TIMES WE SPENT TOGETHER, WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. THEY ARE PERMANENTLY ITCHED IN MY MIND AND IN MY HEART.

YOU FILLED MY HEART WITH LOTS HAPPINESS AND BROUGHT SO MUCH SUNSHINE INTO MY LIFE.

I STILL HEAR YOUR LAUGHTER AND SEE YOUR LITTLE FRECKLED FACE SMILING AT ME.

I STILL HEAR YOU SAYING, "I LOVE YOU MOM."

I CAN STILL FEEL THE WARMTH OF YOUR HUGS AND THE LOVE OF YOUR KISSES ON MY CHEEK.

I STILL SEE YOU BLOWING ME KISSES AND I CATCH MYSELF BLOWING KISSES BACK TO YOU.

MY HEART WILL REMAIN BROKEN UNTIL WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN.

THE TEARS WILL NEVER END, THEY HAVE BECOME A DAILY PART OF MY LIFE.  I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH LITTLE BUBBY.

I MISS YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY AND YOU ARE CONSTANTLY ON MY MIND AND IN MY HEART.

I HOPE YOU HEAR ME THROUGHOUT THE DAYS WHEN I TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND HOW MUCH I MISS YOU.

BUBBY, YOU ARE VERY PRECIOUS TO ME AND I LOVE YOU THE MOST AS MY YOUNGEST SON.

THIS IS THE  VERY DEEPEST LOSS IN MY LIFE AND  I WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND ANY OF IT. ITS THE MOST PAINFUL LIFE LONG SENTENCE.

I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. MY LIFE IS VERY EMPTY WITHOUT YOU.

EVERY TEARDROP IS A SIGN OF HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. THEY ARE NEVER ENDING.

YOU "ARE" AND WILL "ALWAYS" BE MY "EVERYTHING."

WE WERE ALWAYS SO CLOSE AND ITS STILL VERY HARD TO BE APART FROM YOU. IT ALWAYS WILL BE.

I WILL ALWAYS BE PROUD TO BE YOUR MOM AND I WILL ALWAYS BE VERY PROUD THAT YOU ARE MY SON.

I NEVER EVER WANTED TO LOSE YOU OR EVER LET YOU GO...

I NEVER WANTED YOU TO BE HURT OR TO HAVE TO FEEL ANY PAIN IN YOUR LIFE.

TIME DOESN'T LESSEN ANY OF THE HEARTACHE, IT JUST MAKES ME MISS YOU MORE.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH BUBBY!!!!!!

I MISS YOU GREATLY!!!!!!!

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART!!!

BLOWING YOU A KISS >>>>>>>>

LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER,

MOM

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

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SURE MISS MY LITTLE BUDDY...  / Steve Bosch (My little buddy )

HELLO,

 JUST WANTED TO LET ED AND THE WORLD KNOW THAT I SURE MISS

MY LITTLE BUDDY ED. HE WAS LIKE THE ONLY SON I NEVER HAD. WE

 DONE ALOT TOGETHER. I WISH HE WAS STILL HERE TO TO DO MORE

 STUFF WITH ME. I COULD GO RIDING AROUND WITH HIM, NOW THAT

 "HE" WOULD BE DRIVING. I GO ON LOTS OF ROAD TRIPS AND HE

 WAS

MY LITTLE ROADTRIP BUDDY. I SURE MISS YOU ED AND WILL ALWAYS

 AND FOREVER KEEP YOU IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. I LOVE YOU

 AND YOUR MOM FOREVER!!! TILL WE MEET AGAIN MY LITTLE BUDDY...

 FROM YOUR OLD CAR BUDDY,

 STEVE BOSCH

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Happy Halloween Edward  / Denise Kneale (angel friends )

Dear Edward, Have a wonderful Halloween with all our Angels lighting up our skies with your celebrations and leaving small signs for your precious family. Love Never Dies.

Love and Blessings Denise mum to James and Daniel. http://james-kneale.memory-of.com xxx

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Dear Ed,  / Austin Frase (Friend)
Its been 3 years since i last heard you tell a joke, you always made me laugh no matter what day it was, may your memory live on forever. Close

My Deepest Condolences  / Dottie Angel Mom To Matthew Hagan ^i^ (Angel Friend )

I hope this day is bearable for you. I have a site on here myself. My 17 year old son. Murdered in 2003. Such a tragic loss for any parent.  God bless you and your family as you miss your loved one dearly.I will keep you in my prayers, Love to all...(what a terrible way to meet new people). But God has a reason for everything. Hang in there. Know that your friend is only a click away. Mattsmomma@charter.net

Love and Sympathy on your Angelversary.

I will keep you in my prayes.

Dottie

Mattsmomma

www.matthew-hagan.memory-of.com

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Remembering you Edward & Your Loving Family  / Carol PIzzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )

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MANY FACES OF A ANGEL...  / IRENE MOMMY TO ANGEL KAYLA XAVIER ^j^ (OCT. 13, 2008 )

MANY FACES OF A ANGEL...

MEMORIES THAT WILL LAST

FOREVER......

Dear Edward, sweet angel....God

 bless and give strenght to all those

 that love and miss you so

 much...many, many hugs and

kisses to you on this anniversary...

love always ..irene mommy

 to angel Kayla xavier...forever. 

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also a grieving mother  / Glenna Bittinger (none)

Dear mrs meeks

 I too am a grieving mother, I lost my son the 6 of aug this year and they have not arrested the ones that took his life, I to am disappointed in the justice system.  I will say a prayer for your family. God bless all of you.  

glenna bittinger

markleysburg pa

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REMEMBERING YOUR FAMILY  / Caroline Sis To Angel Mimsy

 

Teresa my prayers go to your family and i know this time is very hard. May God give you courage and comfort in your heart.

One day we will meet with our angels but until that day let us seek comfort from God.

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Sending love and prayers  / Saralyn Smith

Teresa,

Sending love and prayers to you for Bubby's 3rd Anniversary in heaven.  May you feel his love surrounding you always, and may our Lord continue to grant you peace, comfort, and strength for each day.

Hugs,

Saralyn, Mom to Angel Robbie

http://robbiesmith.com

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ANGEL DATES ARE SO HARD  / Helen Flissikowski (united by grief )

HOLDIN YOUR FAMILY

IN MY PRAYERS AS EDS

                               3rd ANGEL DATE DRAWS

                                                

                                        NEAR

                                        

                                       

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Thinking Of You On Your Angelversary Edward  / Denise Kneale (angel friends )

Thinking of you Edward on your 3rd Angelversary.  Please stay close to your precious family, leaving them small signs of your love, peace and strength.  Love Never Dies

There is a wonderful book that may help you called Love Never Dies by Sandy Goodman, true story of a mother's journey from loss to love.

Love and Blessings Denise mum to James and Daniel. http://james-kneale.memory-of.com xxx

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IN LOVING EDWARDS ANNIVERSARY  / Carol Carico (none)

Holding you close in thoughts and prayers as we remember your Precious Angel Edward on his approaching heavenly anniversary. Pray the day goes peacefully for you and you receive many signs from your angel. A candle will burn in memory of your angel.
Love & Hugs
Carol

Angel Michael's Mom

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Youre still in my thoughts  / Kelsie Johnston (Friend)

Ed, the day I found out what happened I was at school in concert choir, I had seen you at hastings a couple weeks before but didnt say anything I'm regretting it greatly now. Kannon and I were walking down the hall I was confused, seeing all of the pickett kids coming out of their class rooms heading to the library, everything hit me so hard once everyone was in their chairs, I couldnt believe my ears...."Ed died last night." it kept echoing in my head, I thought it was a very very sick joke. I was one of the first to start crying, we made shirts for you....I still have mine. I could have swore you saw them I felt you there at the funeral, you didnt want us to be sad I know you didnt. I still think about you everyday what it would be like at central, everyone has changed so much! I know you would have still been that goofy kid i knew back in elementary school!! Please watch over us all keep us safe. We still think about you and the good times we had all of us do. I love you and you will always be in my thoughts

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Dear Ed,  / Austin Frase (Friend)

Ed i still think about you often, i have your memorial booklet on my wall.

Sincerly,

Austin Frase

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TODAY IS YOUR 16TH BIRTHDAY...  / MOM: I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

BUBBY,

     THERES NOT A MOMENT THAT GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK OF YOU. BUBBY, I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH!!! I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME..."I LOVE YOU!" YOU'RE SO PRECIOUS. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU AND KISS YOU AND STILL DO ALL THE THINGS WE USED TO DO AND WATCH YOU GROW. I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME. ITS AN EMPTY WORLD WITHOUT YOU IN IT. I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY AND THEN WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOR ALL ETERNITY...YOU'RE MY LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY AND, AS ALWAYS, I'M BLOWING YOU A KISS FROM MY HEART... I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER BUBBY!!!

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why / Serenity Allen

i dont see how this is possible.

honestly.

how could this happen?

we had so many unshared secrets.

so many unshared memories.

i dont see how someone like you could've lost their life.

you were everything to so many people.

you were my everything.

from the time i woke up in the morning.

until i went to sleep at night.

you were always with me.

you still are.

i love you ed and no matter where life takes me i know you'll always be watching over me.

you give me the strength to go on.

i know that as long as i stay strong i'll see you again.

i know god is keeping you safe.

 

 

i love you.

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